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21st Sept 2011

Take care MFAL.

I'm sorry if I annoyed, disturb, ignore you and all. When we were an item, I was very proud as a peacock, why wouldn't you when you've got what you want. I do love you, I want to take care of you, I want to share everything with you but I don't think you feel the same way too. I didn't cry that we're over, but I did cry because of the reasons. I respect your decisions, I really do and I don't mind, but then like they say 'kalau ada jodoh, tak ke mana', don't worry, I won't hope too much this time. :) Maybe I will wait for you after SPM but at the same time, if there's someone else step into my life, I would go to that person. Who knows, IF you still feel the same way as me, and I still don't have anyone else in my life, maybe, perhaps, we might be together? And this time I won't care much about what people might think/say, even if they're my friends, if they're really my friends, they'll support me and cheer me up when I'm down, not blaming you for everything and prove me wrong. I don't know, like I said, I don't hope too much this time, I just want to let you know that maybe I'll wait for you, and maybe not. You must be proud that someone would like you for a long time and might be thinking is she crazy or is she stupid to wait for me and all. I would like to say to you that don't be too proud that I like you for a long time because I'm obsessed to you, no, I like you because I can see you're really different, the difference that I can't explain and of course no, I'm not crazy, I waited for you because who knows I might be lucky. You always make me smile, even though you didn't talk to me for a long time and have hurt me many times, but like my friend said, if that person makes you cry, they will make you twice the happiness, and for now, you're the only one that did that. When the first day, I was thinking please don't let go of me, and for sure I won't let go of you, but because we're still new and the situation is different I need time to get used to it, but when I did get used to it, you let me go, it's okay, your choice, you're happy, I'm happy, you should know I'm the kind of girl that's jealous and sensitive, but I try my best to control myself. :') I miss you, I really do, every single night I'll play all your songs that you gave me, and I'll smile knowing that I've got what I wanted for a long time, I love you, that's what I want to tell you every single time we talked but I was afraid that you don't feel the same way too, I'm not forcing you to do what you don't want to do, it's okay and please I'm not a toy to play with, I've got feelings. I know, you want to focus on your studies, and I'm sorry if I make you loose focus, okay, now onwards I won't disturb you. I'm sorry, I really am, I really feel guilty now for disturbing you and ask all those questions, I'm so sorry about what people describe/comment about you, I'm so sorry, I know that's all my fault and I really feel bad about it, I'm sorry. :'( Good luck on your exams, and I promise not to disturb you anymore, I always pray the best for you. Thanks for all the memories, I love you, take care.

Till then, didie. :'/

P/S: I'm not being desperate, I just want you to know, that's all.

Loves.

16th Sept 2011 is the date,

11.02 pm is the time,

MFAL <3.

Thanks for all the support, I love you guys forever, may God bless you. Lisa, Nadia, Meow, Alia, Fairuz, Jannah, Sab, Farah, Darren, Myn, Eika, Aimie, Farouk, Popo, Shyu, Sofea, Arif, Miera, Dieba, and the others that I missed. Thank you.

Till then, didie. :')

Who knows.

Hi guys, so today I just want to share with you guys something something that I wrote, I don't think it's a poem nor song and definitely it's not an essay, so enjoy. :)

I may not be the prettiest girl you've met,

I may not have a body like a model,

I may not be the smartest girl in school,

I may not be the most popular/hottest girl,

But I may have a heart that can love you everyday,

I can't promise you anything,

But I'll try my very best to make you happy,

And of course make our relationship work as long as possible,

You said you need some time, so I give all the time that you need,

The questions are,

How long would our relationship will last?

Would you love me the way I love you?

How far can I trust you?

Are you sure that you can be loyal?

Sometimes, these are the questions that are playing in my mind,

I would like to be call beautiful than other words,

I would like a guy text/call me first no matter what,

I would like a guy that are honest and loyal,

I would like a guy that would love me for who I am,

And lastly, I would like a guy that never forget God nor his family. :)

I could say that what I wrote up there is something what girls would like to say to the guys right? Or maybe not. :/ Up to you, but then for sure, this is what I want to say to a guy.

Till then, didie. :)