Guys are guys.

Dear boy,

You give me hope,

You give me love,

But when I cherish the love,

You smashed my heart into pieces.

What is wrong with you?

I am so heartbroken.

Thanks a lot.

Forever will remain in my heart.

This 'poem' is exactly what has happened to me. I don't want to make a big deal out of this, but for the last time, do you want to be friends or what? If you do, tell me and please act like I'm just a normal friend to you. Sometimes, I'm jealous when I see/heard you hang out or talk with other girls. Why can't you act like that around me? I'm just a random girl like them. I honestly hate your attitude, you're a shy guy, I'm trying to help you not to be shy, you want to know why? Because you're a guy! You have to man up, not girl up. Sorry if this offence you, but, I think your attitude that gets in the way of us being friends. The only question remains is, can we still be friends? :/

Till then, didie.

P/s: To Farouk Abdillah, thanks for the 'poem' up there, dude. :)

Yeah.

Okay, to tell you the truth, I can't hate you. :/ I think I forgive and forget. So, i tried to talk to you like the old days, and you want to know something? Haha, i felt nothing. Not like I used to, waiting consciously for your reply, but now, nehhh, nothing. :) So, this means, we could be friends. And one more thing, stop smiling at school, you make me laugh. Hahaha, it's not a bad thing to smile, but when I see you smile, I will laugh. :D

Till then, didie. :)

Hatred.

You know what? After you send me that one long text message last two nights, I cried for almost half an hour. You asked me to forgive you, you asked me to reply your text messages. That time, I can't because I'm crying, you don't know how much I hate you that time. Yes, I HATE YOU, I'm sorry, I tried my best not to hate you, but I failed. Yesterday, I cried for more than an hour! And guess what? I CRIED BECAUSE OF YOU. One more thing, yesterday I almost cut myself again, but I didn't do it cause, I think about my friends, how much they care about me until they call me. YOU?! Ha! You NEVER EVER care about me, neither my feelings. When I settled down, I reply your text message, and you did what? NOTHING. It's okay, I don't care about you anymore, but one day, if you see my hand covered with cuts, blame yourself okay? Lastly, after that text last two nights, I keep on dreaming about you, and it makes me uncomfortable because it remind me of you. Please, if you really care about my feelings, you won't do this.

Till then, didie.

P/S: If you want us to be friends, I don't mind, but remember, I feel hatred through my veins. I will never ever be nice or be friends back with the people that I've already hate.

Hurt.

I'm hurt. And because of that I cut myself. I was stupid. :( There's more than 10 lines, but it's not that deep or serious. My friends were there for me, I love them more than words can describe. They even came to my house just to check on me. I love you guys. I know, you won't care. You won't ask. You won't think about me. I made a mistake, I was wrong, a guy like you won't think about my feelings, you just played with it. Thank you then. You just don't know how much I like you, oh sorry, I don't love you, I just like you. When I read/heard that you're calling, chatting, text-ing with someone else, I don't mind because in my mind, 'oh you're not mine yet so he could do whatever he want to'. That's all, I don't hope that you HAVE to be mine, but if there's a chance for you to be mine, I would take that chance. And, you're the only guy that I really really like among all of my crushes before, trust me. I hate LIARS more than murderers, and you don't know how much I hate murderers. So please, don't lie, if you don't want or don't like it, just tell the truth, I'll respect that. FYI, I really don't know if I cut myself because of you or is it the scars that you left. I'm so touched when my friends call me and say I'm stupid to cut myself, because that shows that they really love me, they care about me, I really appreciate that guys, love you guys. I know you won't care about me, who am I to be care by you right? :/ I know I'm not a hotstuff, pretty girl, but this girl has feelings towards you. Haihh, who ever is that lucky girl that you like, she really is lucky, do take good care of her and don't lie, please. Have a great life ahead. And as they said "If you like her, tell her, if you don't, let her go.", so, like I said in the last post, don't give people hope, when there is no hope, because you gave me a really high hope which I know I can't trust.

Till then, didie. Haihh.

Another special.

Hey theree, it's been a while since my last update and that is about my classmates, and their comment was "ASAL LAH" :D So today basically I will talk about a topic, another special someone. I don't wanna drag a long story, so I just wanna say that I really really like you, just by messaging you, I could smile the whole day. And trust me, if you go to my inbox and scroll down, all you see is your name. :) I don't know if you have the same feelings towards me, but please please please, don't give me hope when actually there is no hope for me. :) Lastly, I like you Q.

Till then, didie. ;)